When Purpose Defeats Pain

Nomads walking a highly favored path

Visiting the manatees in Crystal Springs, FL

I'm on the move again! Aye! I guess some were born to settle in one place and others, like me, to keep moving until the work is done. This is what happens when you surrender your life to the designs of a power higher than yourself. When you let God be God and direct your path. He pushes you beyond your limits, ever climbing higher and higher, achieving more and more, getting tireder and tireder. 

In these times I hold on tightly to the Bible verse that tells me that if I wait (serve) on the Lord, he will renew my strength and that I will mount up on wings like eagles. The past few weeks have been nothing if not totally draining,emotionally, physically and spiritually. There have been days I have wanted to simply lie down and mek Johncrow pick mi bones. Two nights ago I couldn't walk. Literally. I mean I couldn't even put my feet on the ground and attempt to walk. I had to be wheeled around in a chair like an invalid. Yet today, I'm standing again.

contemplating life in Old Harbour

That same verse tells me that I will run and not be weary; I will walk and not faint. Old folks used to tell me that tired is not the same as weary. I never understood until now that I am so much closer to being one of them. The old folks that is. Weary transcends tired. It's a point of being overwhelmed with tiredness, frustrated with unfulfilled dreams and giving up. Actually, it's the point at which one does lay down and mek Johncrow pick dem bones. Weary is a place of hopelessness. I haven't arrived at weary. My strength is being renewed as I continue to serve God and my fellow man.

As I write, my mind drifts back to a conversation my husband and I had a couple nights ago as he massaged my hurting feet. We talked about the chain of events that brought us together, tore us away from Florida and back to Jamaica, walked us through the doors of Jamaica Youth for Christ, moved us from place to place in Jamaica, introduced us to Church on the Rock, Ocho Rios and now is taking us to Hollywood with our second faith-based film, The Gift Everlasting. And that is Hollywood California if you please.

Waiting for sunset on Florida's West Coast

If you had even suggested that I would have been a film maker with an award-wining film and one heading to a screening in the land of film making, Hollywood, I would have looked at you cast-eyed and upside down. I am a writer, not a film maker. But that is what I say. What God says is something completely different.

God's purpose for me has always been and will continue to be so much greater than anything I could imagine or even deal with. So He has unfolded it a little at a time. There has been some hardship along the way but the joy of the outcomes is exciting and well worth the trust. I don't ever want to be led any other way ever again. This is an exciting road He has placed me on. Filled with loving family, wonderful friends and spectacular sunsets. I will enjoy each day and leave the directing up to Him.

No pain can dull my purpose. No pain will kill my praise! Selah